Oh.

I am so not ready to date again yet.

Been thinking a lot about my most recent ex lately. Still feels weird and wrong to say that. So much resentment at the moment. When did he decide he didn't want a life with me anymore? Has he even realized that he decided that? Wondering how his family is doing and the surreal realization that I wont see thwm for the holidays again. Is he going to get any closer to his goals or will he just...let them go like he did with me.

I havr got to get out of here. Going to try to get back to sleep.